Honda had it Right – Can Hate be Good?

Posted in Uncategorized on July 26, 2014 by Unknown

‘Can hate be something we don’t hate?’

Normally I would say hate is never good. It’s a huge waste of time and energy, but I guess I have to re-evaluate that opinion.

In April 2014, I was diagnosed with FHM: Familial Hemiplegic Migraine. I have gone through (and probably STILL going through the 7 stages of grief:

Shock/Disbelief: What? How? WHAT?? All these years of pain and suffering and what I have amounts to nothing more than a bloody headache??? Are you kidding me??

Denial: How can it be just bad headaches? So, what is it all about? I cant possibly have that. It has to be more. I got home and checked it out on medical websites and this is what I found:

Hemiplegic Migraine – The Basics

To understand Hemiplegic Migraine, we have to understand that Migraine attacks are episodic manifestations of a genetic neurological disease. Migraine can present in a variety of ways. Hemiplegic Migraine is a rare form of Migraine, made more confusing by there being two variations: Familial Hemiplegic Migraine (FHM) and Sporadic Hemiplegic Migraine (SHM).

What are the symptoms? I am only going to post the ones that I experience:

Visual Aura (before the pain begins)

  • a bright shape that spreads across the visual field of one eye and appears to block some or all of the vision; can be seen whether the eye is open or closed
  • flashes of light and color
  • wavy lines
  • geometric patterns
  • blurred vision
  • partial loss of sight
  • Episodes of prolonged aura (up to several days or weeks)

Sensory

Motor

  • partial paralysis
  • weakness or heaviness in the limbs on one side of the body
  • Hemiplegia (paralysis on one side of the body)
  • Meningismus (symptoms of meningitis without the actual illness and accompanying inflammation)

Cognitive

  • mental confusion
  • disorientation
  • inability to concentrate
  • difficulty finding words
  • Impaired consciousness ranging from confusion to profound coma
  • The onset of the hemiplegia may be sudden and simulate a stroke

Digestive

Fluid disturbances

  • increased thirst
  • frequent urination
  • bloating/fluid retention

Mental/Personality

  • fatigue, lethargy
  • mood changes
  • irritability
  • high energy
  • irritability
  • depression
  • anxiety
  • nervousness
  • euphoria, feeling of intense well-being
  • Headache, which may begin before the hemiplegia or be absent

Digestive

  • nausea
  • vomiting
  • intolerance of food odors
  • loss of appetite
  • diarrhea
  • constipation

Skin

  • paleness
  • cold, clammy hands and feet
  • facial swelling
  • goose bumps
  • bloodshot eyes
  • black circles around eyes
  • sweating

Respiratory

Circulatory

  • changes in blood pressure
  • blood vessel dilation
  • difficulty regulating temperature
  • changes in heart rhythms

 

Bargaining: Right, but most of that sounds like Bi-Polar disorder. I accept FHM, but I refuse to believe I have both BPD AND FHM, so I am now waiting to have the BPD re-assessed. 

Guilt: What I hate is making plans to go out with friends and then having to cry off because I am barely conscious. I hate having to call in sick at work and I feel guilty because of the hangover:

“Postdrome” is the official term for that wrung out, exhausted, headachy feeling migraineurs experience after the most painful and intense phase of their migraine attack has passed. Calling this stage, the fourth in a migraine attack, a “migraine hangover” strikes a chord the clinical definition does not. The most active, intense part of the experience is over and you’re left dealing with the not-quite-right aftermath. All without the fun of drinking delicious adult beverages and laughing with your friends.

Not every migraineur experiences postdrome, though most do. In one study, 68% of participants had migraine hangover symptoms that lasted from a few hours to a couple days, with an average duration of 25.2 hours. Symptoms include of tiredness, difficulty concentrating, weakness, dizziness, lightheadedness, decreased energy, head pain, skin and scalp sensitivity, and mood change.

I first wrote about postdrome in 2007 and have collected more than 250 accounts of migraineurs’ experience with it. People describe the physical sensations as weighted down limbs, moving through mud, walking through quicksand, heaviness and numbness. Some say they feel like they’ve just run a marathon or been beaten up or hit by a truck. Though the pain isn’t as severe as in the height of the migraine, head pain is common and often exacerbated by coughing or sneezing, some say their head and brain feel bruised. Emotionally, people describe being easily agitated and annoyed, impatient, sad and depressed. A dense mental fog or haze, difficulty making decisions, mental confusion, and forgetfulness are also frequently reported symptoms.

Many migraineurs, both in studies and the stories I’ve collected, say that postdrome interferes with their work as well as their family and social relationships. Because the worst of the migraine is over, many feel like they should be able to get more done and feel guilty for not being productive. If you fall into this category — I certainly do — remember that the migraine is not over. You’re still experiencing symptoms, though not as intense, so try to go easy on yourself.

While knowing the medical terms used for migraine is helpful for talking with your doctor about your symptoms and experience, referring to a migraine hangover in social situations can help non-migraineurs understand the severity of the LEAST painful part of a migraine attack. Non-migraineurs think “hangover” and they think horrible headache and feeling wrung out. After I explained the similarities between alcohol and migraine hangovers to a friend, she asked, “You mean the migraine is even WORSE than that?” She was appropriately horrified when I said yes and that the hangover is actually a relief after the pain of the attack.

- Kerrie Smyres – Migraine.com

Anger: Angry?? Damn right I am angry. I have suffered this for years. Why has it only come about now? WHY do I have to have a disease that’s eating away at my brain?  Having joined a support forum I find that FHM CAN cause Epilepsy, Alzheimer, coma along with Permanent partial paralysis. WTF!!! Why is this happening to me?? WHY do I have to have THIS disease on top of all the other diseases and conditions?! When will things be good for ME!!!

Depression: Already, so many parts of my life have been affected. Before this I had never had a day sick, NEVER forgotten my boss/friends names. NEVER forgotten words. I feel angry because I KNOW I am not at my best, but I still feel guilty that I am not doing ‘normal’ everyday things. More important than all of that I am depressed because I feel angry and guilty over something I cant do a thing about. I feel depression knowing that there is no happy ending for me.

Acceptance/Hope: Yes, I now accept my lot. I have always been of the mind, if you cant change something, you should try to adjust to it and unless the MRI shows something different, then I can’t change this. Perhaps the word is not acceptance, perhaps the word is more ‘resignation’.

Hope? really? Your kidding? Okay so I COULD hope that I don’t get any of the more serious ‘stuff’. I live alone in a flat on the 3rd floor, so that would be an issue for me. My employers are amazing about this. After reading some of the stories, I am blessed that I have that, so I hope that I can do my best for them whilst I can. And sometimes, just sometimes when the pain is real bad, I hope this will be the last one. When I feel an attack, I usually post on FB something like ‘Shoot me. Shoot me now’. Whilst I love my friends, I hope they don’t realize I am being serious.

So back to the title: Can hate be good? I have to change my opinion and say YES because if I didn’t hate what this was doing to me, I wouldn’t so determined to find out everything about it. I know its uncurable, but it has just GOT to be manageable.

Hasn’t it?

 

Emails

Posted in Uncategorized on June 29, 2014 by Unknown

Unknown:

And this is where it all began. The TRUE instigator of all the hate n violence

Originally posted on War On ARA:

The following emails are proof that Peter and Julia have been in contact, PREVIOUSLY before the campaign. This email here refers to actions done for the Korean Dogs and Julia’s plan/ idea for NoToDogMeat even though it had not started. Julia’s original plan was to do things just for Korea but then expanded to NTDM globally.

—–Original Message—–
From: peter egan <SIC>
To: <SIC>
Sent: Sun, 24 Mar 2013 19:46
Subject: Re: Twitter etc- ” N0 To Dog Meat” ( @notodogmeat)
Hi Julia,

Well done. Giving the petition another push. Can’t understand why it’s taking so long to achieve its objective. Keep me posted. Will try to attend in July.

Peter (-:)
On Sun, Mar 24, 2013 at 6:16 PM, F <SIC> wrote:
Peter

Hi quick message from Korean Dogs and what is now soon to be launch of the ” No to Dog Meat Campaign”
We have staged several…

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Connections

Posted in Uncategorized on June 29, 2014 by Unknown

Unknown:

Connecting the dots… from the previous reblogged masterpiece

Originally posted on War On ARA:

Connecting the dots, on how everyone and thing is connected to this hate campaign. As you saw from the Emails, Julia and Peter Egan have been in contact for quite some time. You can also see that Julia told him about the No to dog meat campaign. The fact is, No to dog meat is just a campaign ARM, for World Protection of the dogs and cats in the meat trade.

We will try to make this as simplified as we can, for others to understand. During this hate campaign, No to dog meat was just starting out, now what do I mean by just starting out?
Getting their feet on the ground, fighting to become registered fully, because at the time they only had a temporary registration. Yes they were still allowed to collect donations with just a temporary registration.

Since May, two women have been watching their page. 

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The Others Involved

Posted in Uncategorized on June 29, 2014 by Unknown

Unknown:

This is incredible. I have to reblog this from my friends over at War on ARA. Fantastic work team. You are awesome

Originally posted on War On ARA:

Lorrainthreat

Let’s see why didn’t Michele Brown name the people? Because she was that person who wasn’t using the money the right way, while under Julia’s campaign. Far as we know these two, Michele and Lorraine, have been connected through NTDM and possibly were or are still friends…

Also I must point out that saying you’re going to break someone’s legs well, that’s a threat, and not how people talk to others who they might donate too.

We’re coming up to the point where the Sydney people were “supposedly” ripped off. Lorraine was the organizer of this event, and I hate doing this personally. But it was not the amount they claimed, which they claimed to be $5,000. Simply put Julia never received that amount.

You all might want to look at the one who stole everything from NTDM, that being Jon Williamson, Craig, and Michele. As said before, donation links…

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Trying To Silence People: Fake Reports To Facebook

Posted in Uncategorized on May 2, 2014 by Unknown

Trying To Silence People: Fake Reports To Facebook.

 

You know, I am reading this blog and all I can imagine, is a guy who spends 18 hours a day on his pc, reporting Facebook comments, whilst humming/whistling and yes, dare I say it? Badly singing:

 

Oh give me a home where the buffalo roam,
Where the deer and the antelope play,
Where seldom is heard a discouraging word,
And the skies are not cloudy all day.

Chorus Home, home on the range,
Where the deer and the antelope play,
Where seldom is heard a discouraging word,
And the skies are not cloudy all day.

Where the air is so pure, and the zephyrs so free,
The breezes so balmy and light,
That I would not exchange my home on the range,
For all of the cities so bright.

The Red man was pressed from this part of the west,
He’s likely no more to return,
To the banks of the Red River where seldom if ever
Their flickering campfires burn.

How often at night when the heavens are bright,
With the light from the glittering stars,
Have I stood there amazed and asked as I gazed,
If their glory exceeds that of ours.

Oh, I love these wild flowers in this dear land of ours,
The curlew I love to hear cry,
And I love the white rocks and the antelope flocks,
That graze on the mountain slopes high.

Oh give me a land where the bright diamond sand,
Flows leisurely down in the stream;
Where the graceful white swan goes gliding along,
Like a maid in a heavenly dream.

Then I would not exchange my home on the range,
Where the deer and the antelope play;
Where seldom is heard a discouraging word,
And the skies are not cloudy all day.

 

 

 

The Lunatics Have Taken Over The Asylum

Posted in News and politics, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on April 12, 2014 by Unknown

You picked the very best day to fuck me about Jon:
Jon: Tarnia your name is TARNIA not JET there is no JET dumb shit in the island of Jersey and that ANYONE asshole can look up. Still using fake names are we?
Your right there Jon. There is no JET dumb shit (who would have a name like that anyway?) in the island, but as I keep telling you, you moronic ASSHOLE my name is JETZ MADDOX, well easy to find, for those who actually learnt how to spell.

Capture
Are you saying you contacted ALL 98,000 residents and you STILL couldn’t find me? Didnt contact ANY of the couple hundred FB friends you kindly listed and sent to me?? No?? Is that too much for your tiny, drug rotted mind to comprehend?

Jersey
Ok, so STOP telling me what you want my name to be. This life is not called the Jonny Show. Speaking of fakes, when are YOU going to stop with all yours? Not admitting that here today then? Its ok, I know who you are JONNY/JOSE/HARVEY/JOSEPH.
I notice you never mentioned when you were coming to serve those papers for the UK and the Jersey lawsuit you took against me like I ASKED? Oh but hang on….. How can you bring a case against me, when you have just stated you dont know who I am?? See how you trip yourself?

Police

Too many fake accounts there, its hard to keep the profiles straight. Like how you (as Jose) claim to have made a case against me in the UK, but you (Jose) lives in Spain (which, by the way, doesn’t ‘begin with an R’. No, it begins with an S).

Spain with an RSpainPolice 2

HUH? Come again? Hm, but you claimed over and over again that:

1) you had spoken to the police in Jersey AND Guernsey (though I don’t know WHY you went there) who ‘know me very well’. I guess that’s a lie too seeing as ‘there is no JET dumb shit in the island’

Police
2) You have CAD numbers from both UK and Jersey? I guess that’s a lie too as, like you said: ‘there is no JET dumb shit in the island’

CAD no
3) You were contacted by my ex – Yet HE wasn’t able to tell you my name either. He couldn’t identify me from that picture you took of me and showed to him? Don’t you think that’s a little ‘odd’, a bit ‘mentally unstable’ Jonny? That probably would have resolved this right there and then, but you don’t want that do you? Nope you would much rather convince yourself and your ‘buddies’ that ‘there is no JET dumb shit in the island’.

Ex

Ok, so what else have you stated whilst you were having your daily 3 HOUR lunch break, or did you comment during your 6 HOUR dinner break (8 on the weekends)? Gee Jonny, that’s 10 hours a weekday stuffing your fat disgusting face and 18 hours a day ‘trolling’ my pages. I guess it wasn’t JUST English you couldn’t be bothered to learn. Math seems to have gone right out the window too:

 

Hours
Did you say three jobs, you meant three internet stalking pages that use oh and there is the “blog talk radio” very paid off course. Make stories up? You mean you want me to do what YOU do?> an everyday occurance of a paranoid delusionist.

I DID say three jobs Jonny and I told you where they all were. Now, bear in mind that there is clearly ‘no JET dumb shit in the island’ do you think that’s why you could not prove this to be true?:
“Hello, yes can I speak to JET dumb shit please?”
“I am sorry I think you have the wrong number. There is no-one here of that name”.

Could that be how it went, do you think?
and no, I don’t class my pages as ‘work’, they are no bother to me. I actually LIKE maintaining my 3 pages. I can understand that having over 20 like you do would be a chore, but really, mine are great to work on. A real pleasure.

Who is the paranoid Delusionalist Jonny (incidentally Wikipedia, the ‘online dictionary’ really let you down here. That’s not even a real word)?

Wikitionary

- The person who tricks himself into believing real people (Jetz, Mary, Bobbie, Liz, xxxxx, Janette, Julia – All women incidentally. Funny that) don’t exist and the names HE makes up are the real people?

Or the person who has not been caught out on a lie in 2 YEARS (that’s right you paranoid cyberstalking pitiful excuse of a non ‘humane’ being, two years you have been doing this. GET A LIFE!) because that person doesnt actually tell lies?

Which one Jonny? Go on, Speak up, which person, YOU or me????

And just in case you think you have the power to remove this blog like you did none of my others, I would like to remind you of this:

Permission

Different Perspectives

Posted in Uncategorized on March 28, 2014 by Unknown

Hello My friends,

 

In this blog I want to look at different perspectives. What people THINK is important compared to what actually IS important.

As you all know, I am not a religious person, and I try to avoid using religion in my arguments, largely because Religion is possibly the only argument that nobody can win. However today, I am going to change that. But the perspectives I am talking about are not about Religion. It’s about how some people just can’t see the bigger picture.

Okay, let’s go. For those who don’t know, I own an independent radio show called Commala Radio. This week I have produced a show about Governmental control and how outrageous it’s now becoming. An example of this is:

http://www.wnd.com/2008/08/71096/

The show was aired last week and it became apparent that those living inside The States are not given the same information as those OUTSIDE of it.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/commala/2014/03/26/who-made-who

Right, so where am I going with this? Well, I have been watching the destruction of Americans and I have been listening to the Government reason it out. I watch the Administration create new laws to bypass the death and destruction of it’s people and I am trying to get the real word out there.

As you know, I AM a spiritualist and I asked my guide to access the library (The Akashic Records) and show me what is happening.

All day yesterday, my spirit guide showed me the records ( films and video clips on Youtube, reports on various websites) and by 11pm last night, I got it. I know what’s happening. Again I am NOT a religious person, but I see, I see what’s coming and I want to tell you about it.

It’s called The Tribulation. I will be doing a show tonight on this as it’s easier to hear religious people explain it than to hear me even try, but basically, the way I see it, The Tribulation is a time of great troubles and suffering. It’s a time of death and understanding. It’s the arrival of the first horseman of the Apocalypse (pestilence).

pes·ti·lence n.

1. A usually fatal epidemic disease, especially bubonic plague.
2. A pernicious, evil influence or agent.
1. (Pathology)

a. any epidemic outbreak of a deadly and highly infectious disease, such as the plague
b. such a disease
2. an evil influence or idea
These are not going to be great times. Pestilence is also described in modern times, as a virus. Think about it: How many times have you had the flu? How many people have died from this flu? And how many times have you had the flu ‘vaccine’?
But as I said, this blog is about perspective. So here we have the total and complete destruction of the human population (notice I haven’t said ‘potential’. It’s not hypothetical, it’s, sadly, fact).
And then there are the odd (and I do MEAN odd) few people for whom their life is consumed with hating one or two people, so much so that this particular disease spends all day EVERY day posting crap on Facebook, targeting friends and family, posting vitriol on any FB page that this person BELIEVES the one or two are actually on and incites hatred and violence.
Priorities, anyone?
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