Apart from researching whether F.H.M. can be slowed down using herbal supplements, I have also been researching Auras.
Auras are the second part of a 4 part episode. The first is ‘Prodrome’ and can serve as a warning of an impending episode. It can start hours or days before the episode itself, however, I am still learning my triggers, so haven’t quite got to that point. I am currently looking at phase 2.
As those who suffer F.H.M. know, auras can appear in different colours and it is my intent to discover if the aura is an indication of the episode to follow.
To date the colours of the auras that I experience are: Blue, Green, Gold, Red, White, Orange, Purple and Black.
As I said in my last post, I felt an episode was imminent and I was not wrong.
Four days ago, as I was getting ready to leave the house for work, I was looking for something (as you do like keys, or gloves for excample). As I was searching I was becoming more stressed over the fact that I was going to be late for work. I could feel the ‘burn’ up the back of my neck and into the back of my head. Eventually I found what I was looking for and set off to work. On the way the pain continued over the right side of my head and face, causing my eye to water. I know I SHOULD have gone home, but hoped it would pass. Just a quick note here. I have a tablet called Zolmitriptan. When I feel an episode approaching, I have to take one of these pills no later than 15 minutes after the episode starts, however, because I haven’t had an episode for several weeks, I didn’t have them with me. My bad. The idea behind the ‘triptans’ is that they dilate the blood vessels in the brain to allow the flow of blood and natural chemicals (Endorphins, adrenaline etc) to flow freely, reducing pain. This is known as ‘Phase 3′
Before this happened, I had been ‘seeing’ a blue aura for a few days (an indication an episode is on the way. Sadly you can experience an aura without any symptoms of an FHM episode, and the auras can’t tell you how long it will be before the episode strikes. Or can it?)
Okay, so from past studies, this is what I know about Blue auras:
Blue – Lethargy, Dubbing Down (speech getting slower, difficulty concentrating, neck pain, burning pain in back of head. face feeling like its swelling, pain in right eye and mild watering of said eye. Mild nausea). Reduced heartbeat and discomfort of the heart area, followed by symptoms of TIA, pain in chest, pain/numbness in right arm. Pins and Needles in fingers/hand/toes. Uncontrollable need to sleep. Loss of speech and concentration.
So once I arrived at work, I did alert my bosses to the fact I was experiencing some difficulties. My employers are the best. They know what I have and they know how it affects me, so I have no reluctance or hesitation in telling them when an episode is imminent. Normally I work at a computer terminal, inputting data, however, due to the epileptic symptoms of FHM (fugue states caused by repetition etc), PC work was not going to help. I had other work to do, but after three hours, I could barely keep my eyes open and couldn’t concentrate. I left early and on the way home suffered the symptoms of a TIA (Trans Ischemic Attack). This time though my toes went completely numb and well as my arm, hand and fingers. That’s new. By the time I got home, I couldn’t really function and could only go to bed.
This brings me to a conversation I had many years ago, with the family doctor. I have mentioned before how wonderful our brains are. It is a truly fabulous piece of kit. Did you know, for example, that your brain stem contains a ‘fail-safe’? Me neither. What this does is shut down your body during times of increased trauma or stress (fainting). So, for example, if you have been involved in an accident, your brain will activate the ‘fail-safe’ in order to help your body deal with any pain you may be suffering as a result of that accident. Losing a loved one is the same. Some people find the pain of losing a loved one (especially unexpectedly), so traumatic that their brain will shut down the body until it feels the mind can deal with that loss. It’s also how we shut out certain traumatic incidents from childhood. How amazing is that?
Okay, so back to four days ago. I got home and the ‘fail-safe’ was activated. In F.H.M. terms, this simulates a comatose state. When this happens to me, I can be unconscious for up to 18 hours. This time was no different. I ‘fell asleep’ as soon as I got home on Wednesday and was only able to GET up and move about on Friday (aside from using the bathroom, however I am not ‘aware’ of those things happening at the time. Insignificant I guess).
Now ‘getting up’ is not the same as ‘ I am better’. Getting up means just that. I can get up and I can move about, but I couldn’t do a maths equation or solve the worlds’ hunger problems, that’s for sure. The most I can do is function at the most basic of levels. Conversations are not going to happen. This is Phase Four – Postdrome:
Many people mention feeling “hung-over” after a Migraine. This is often actually part of the Migraine, the Postdrome. Most F.H.M. sufferers have some symptoms after the headache phase, symptoms that may last hours or even a couple of days.
Postdrome symptoms may include:
fatigue, lowered intellect levels, lowered mood levels, especially depression, or feelings of well-being and euphoria, poor concentration and comprehension.
So this is were I am today. Still recovering, going through the Postdrome. Why am I blogging this? Well, as I have said before, it’s important to me, that I record everything that relates to my ‘experiment’ with DNA Force. Whilst there was never any doubt in my mind that DNA Force could not repair cells that have been damaged too badly, or are in fact dead already, it makes me wonder if a) I have left it too late or b) these attacks may be the result of cells that are already dead/damaged, so perhaps the DNA Force can prevent these attacks from getting worse or more intense?.
Incidentally, whilst going through this episode I was unable to ingest the herbal supplements, so I guess I am going to have to start again. Also, I realize that there may well be something in my theory that the colour of the aura is important in the F.H.M. process. From my experience I am aware that the ‘Blue Aura Episodes’ are the same or so closely similar as to make no difference. That, I feel, is very important.
So to summarize: Blue Auras may be connected with simulations of Epilepsy, Coma, and TIA. Now, the big question here, is it possible to avoid the episode, knowing what the colour associated with it may be?
Knowing now that the blue aura is associated with these symptoms, what can I do differently? Perhaps knowing this, I can be more alert to situations that may cause stress? Example: Instead of ignoring the aura and then stressing about not be able to find something (like I did on Wednesday) maybe I could be aware of that aura and know that a) the stress of looking for that thing, is likely to start an episode, so leave it and b) Just call into work and let them know I am going to be late, thereby giving myself a chance to either realize the episode is getting worse or give myself time to see if the episode is going to take hold and therefore stopping it getting worse by trying harder to function normally, thereby making it worse (as I did).
I am ending this blog with the following advice. I subscribe to Migraine.com and The Migraine Trust and I read everything they have to offer. It has been such a big help and it was those sites that led me to study auras. Sometimes though, even I miss the ‘signs’ lol. For example: I know from research that when I have a problem concentrating or to retrieve a particular word, I should stop trying because I will only make it worse.
Imagine a time when you bumped into a friend, only you forgot their name. It’s there ‘on the tip of your tongue’ but the harder you try, the more illusive it becomes? this is the same, however in trying to retrieve that name, or word, I make it worse. Had I recognized this last week, maybe I could have saved myself all this trouble? Who knows.
Incidentally, after 15 minutes of searching for the object that started all this, I found it. In my pocket. Go figure.